Blue Moon Blog

Here’s my once-every-blue-moon blog. Its been a while, but since I’ve still been getting comments on my last entry, I thought it only necessary to keep on doing it. Plus, I need to get some stuff off my chest, in a informative and in no way depressing way….. hopefully.

A lots happened since …..*checks last blog date*…. October! That’s ages ago, wow. Yeah, a lots happened. Christmas, New Years and Valentines Day. Its been a while.

She gave me beer. love at first sight...

In November, I met up with someone I’ll call Barmaid Girl. I chatted her up over the bar in the pub which she worked in, which is very unlike me. She was a bit unsure at first because of the age difference (9 years younger no less). We went out a couple of weeks and ended it soon after due to her being immature and plus we had nothing in common. We broke it off early December and that was that.

I spent Christmas with Kallam (my son) at my ex’s place while my ex went out to parties and so on. I wouldn’t miss his Christmas for the world.

Just after Christmas I received a message from someone (I shall name Blondie), who stated she had liked my profile and wanted to get to know me better. Curious and curiouser. We chatted and it turned out from the chats, she was alright to get on with. So after a bit of time, around Boxing day we decided to meet up.

We decided to meet up at a local pub which held a pub quiz. Its fair to say things didn’t go to plan from the start. She sat at a table next to the front door of the pub and being winter, we both were freezing and had people brushing past us on either side. It annoyed me an made me uncomfortable on top of me being my shy old self. I’m not a date person, having only going on dates once or twice in the past. I lapsed into silence having had difficulty talking to her, being shy herself. She was really pretty and sexy and that made me shy. She took it as me being ignorant and mean, so come the end of the night I found myself apologizing to her as she showed quite visibly that she was upset. Good start…. Yeah right.

We talked afterwards and decided another date was needed. My confidence was lower the second time round having been frustrated at the outcome of the last. The next one was with friends though and I was considerably more relaxed. Disaster struck though when, towards the end of the night, having had difficulties talking to her asked for her to join me outside to talk, but she didn’t follow. So I waited outside thinking she’ll come eventually. Turns out she just took it the wrong way and went off crying. Strange.

Things went fine for a while, went out a few times and she gave me more chances after making me admit it was all my fault after loads of arguments with me trying to defend myself. Disaster struck again though when we had a big argument out at another pub where she complained all the time about the way I acted and how I should treat her differently then how I treat friends. In some ways this is true, but the stuff I was doing, I wouldn’t have thought it was a big of a deal. Stranger still…. After changing to another pub, she excused herself and came back totally calm, flirty and friendly. That had me confused and freaked out. She also nit picked at little habits I didn’t even know I had. Id have given up sooner, but something just made me want to keep on trying.

We broke it off eventually when after loads more arguments we decided we weren’t meant to be and that we should go our separate ways. I was glad to be single again after such a hard time and confidence draining time. The sex was great and some times together were happy, on the whole we had to call it quits.

So here I am single, and what have I learnt. Even the most beautiful women can be bitches. Nuff said. So I’m on the leisure.

That’s basically the whole update. I’ll update more frequent in the days/weeks to come.

The joys of winter...

I hate winter for obvious reasons. Namely:

1. the cold..
2. the fact that most are susceptible to catching a cold in the winter.
3. you have to buy more clothes to keep warm.
4. the gas bill sky rockets.
6. the cold...brrrrr

I much prefer spring/summer (apart from the bugs). I feel like I am coming down with a cold. It put it all down to the cold and a bad choice in footwear. I wear converses. They let the cold in real bad and I felt yesterday like my feet were in fact in blocks of ice. I’ve made a mental note now to wear my other trainers when going out. They are made out of the white leather stuff normal trainers are made out of and not material.

My weekend wasn’t bad in all honesty. It all kicked off on Thursday night. I went to a local bands gig and got wasted with friends and had a great time. Friday night came and it was a works night out. It was to be held at Formby Hall, an exclusive spa and golf resort. I enjoyed the night, which mainly consisted of a five course meal, followed by free champagne and a comedy act, which had me in stitches.

Before attending at the works Christmas gathering, I felt my confidence had come on leaps and bounds, but the first sight of mingling with other work colleagues, I went back to shy ole Mal, and just sat off on my own for some of the night. A few drinks later though, I was having good conversations with others. Overall it was a good night. I got back at 2am in the morning, and went straight to bed not before taking a pic of myself in my smart attire.

Later that day I awoke and went to collect my son, but as it was cold out, we stayed in. I had them overnight, as his mum, my ex was going out. She seems to be going out a lot lately and I’ll need to make a mental note to not agree to have them overnight as often. On the plus side though, she is paying me back some of the money she owes me bit by bit every weekend.

Sunday came and I had a great time with the kids through the day waiting for the ex to return to the house. As usual she took her time and I left hers at 3pm. I waited around for a bus for a long time being a Sunday and the cold got to me badly and later on I gradually felt worse for wear and sick. I couldn’t get the sleep properly as I was having violent shivering bouts and because of this my sore back really hurt. It has been hurting for a couple of days now. I’ve never felt anything like that. I was retching in pain and shivering really bad. I managed to get to sleep eventually after breathing deeply and the shivering subsided. This morning though, I have no energy at all and still feel bad, but I’ve made an effort to go into work. If it gets worse, I’ll ask for sick leave. Fingers crossed that I get over this quickly and it doesn’t worsen.

Apart from the doom and gloom I feel lately, the Christmas spirit has eventually caught up with me and I’ve been humming and singing Christmas songs around the house and in work. It’s contagious. I was tormenting my son and step son with repetitive OH OH OH!s and they did likewise. It was fun. I’ve made two Christmassy designs recently and I thought I’d share them with you good people.

Will update you all as to how I feel and what I get up to soon.

Smells Like Xmas Spirit

Me (aged 5?) with my best friend at the time, Old St Nick

The time is almost upon us when we swap presents, reunite with family and friends and everyone seems to be happy. Yet still, I find it increasingly hard to get into the spirit of things.... maybe its because I am single again with no family of my own any more to come home to after work, or put decorations up, to see excitement in their faces every day.. it puts a dampener on things and is like a dark cloud hanging over my heart. As does thinking about those not so fortunate, those who are homeless, have no families, those who suffer from day to day with no jobs or homes. My thoughts go out to them.

I want my son Kallam to get everything I did as a child, plenty of toys and all the sweets he can eat. In many ways I was spoilt and got nearly everything I wanted as a child. I now appreciate the effort my parents put into giving me the latest toy I was into just to make me happy. Now I want to do the same for my son, especially with me not being around as much since me and my ex split up back in March. I've bought him something already, but will buy more just before Christmas when I get paid. On an afterthought though, I definately do not want him to be as spoilt as I was, not taking getting toys for granted and knowing he'll get anything he wishes. It will be something I will work out as time passes, i'm sure.

As for recent events, Its been same old i'm afraid. Not much to report on. This weekend however I was asked to go out on the town by a friend and he said he would give me £10. How could I refuse?! I went out into the misty cold night with my friends going from club to club and had a good night. Can't ask for more then that. The next day I had my son, Kallam and Rhys for the day and minded them over night to give my ex a break, as she has been having a bad time with her relationship and her dad, who is terminally ill. Its the least i could do. It was good to have them, but equally stressfull. We had a great time though and it was good to spend the next morning with them watching childrens cartoons and chilling feeling that I am the luckiest guy around for having just a brilliant son. He means the world to me.

I am approaching the end of a great book series called The Dark Tower by Stephen King. Its been my reader's digest for over a year now and i've been hooked. Its all building to a climax. To explain the story would take forever. Click the link above for a wiki on it though. What is good about it is that its basically a fantasy/western epic story, which is set in the future. It follows the main character's journey to save the universe from evil by reaching The Dark Tower. He is aided along the way by three people, who are from a parallel universe, who he trains up to be gunslingers like himself. I'm totally emmersed in it and I am enjoying it so much. It will be sad to put it down after reading it all. I hope there is not an anti climax at the end... I will write a review on the whole series soon.

That is it for now. I will write another blog in the not so distant future.