I get so bored in work. I guess i'd be more happy in a creative job, photography, design, anythin other than this. This job feeds on your soul. Hense, my attempt at creating a hat for my little mascot Neville the Nut. I think its quite fetching......help!Maybe I'm over-reacting. Its a cosy job, I sit around all day, just type letters and thats it. I'm in a warm office and the pay is better than average. I have the feeling lately that I simply can't stay in this job forever and maybe its time to move on.
On the other hand, I'm thinking its too late to enrol at college. I should seek advice on that point by someone at the local college to see what my possibilities are. I wouldn't mind learning photography or design, its a big risk and I not be able to pay my way like I do now. I guess I am not happy with big changes. I'll request another prospectus from the local place and see what they have on offer for how much. Thats another thing; for adults to enrol they need to pay in excess of £100 for any one course. It seems things are stacked against me on that front.
Another thing that has been weighing me down, moreso lately, is driving. Every morning and evening on my way to and from work, I have to look at all those happy drivers in their swank cars and wish that it was me. I would love to drive to be able to travel to pick up my son, go visiting people who live far away and more. But again, this comes with a big gamble. I pass all tests.....then what. I can't afford a proper car, even if I save for a year or somethin. I'm impatient and I would like a car the second I pass. This makes me put it off even more. I need motivation if I want to fulfill any of my long-term plans, which I seem to lack at the moment.
Life has been great lately apart from the two set backs above. I've been seeing my latest fling, who I shall call.......Shoe Girl....... the only name I can think of at the mo, as she loves shoes. :¬) We've been hanging out most nights and they have been great. Just what I need. Most of the time we listnen to tunes, watch films, but more importantly talk about random stuff. Good times. Shes going through confusing times at the moment and whichever path she chooses, I sincerely hope shes happy. Shes a great lass and with the amount of care and happiness she delivers out to others, she deserves some herself.
Payday is upcoming and I hope I can keep some money back to last me the month, which I seem to always have a problem in doing. I buy things, which I really shouldnt. I'm spoilt, I know. I need to buy things this month however. Glasses, a new coat, and shoes. Maybe some t-shirts and jeans. All of which shouldnt be a problem as I'm Mr Cheapskate and only buy bargain, discount clothes which look cool lol
Will update ya later.
