Friday 16 October 2009

Good Mood Calls for Good Change


Recently, I’ve been feeling good. No, I haven’t been taking drugs, meds or cannabis, but its a natural high. I feel refreshed and rejuvenated as if I’m seeing the world through new eyes. I know it sounds all over dramatic, but honestly, its how I feel at the mo. I feel like breaking out into song....”aint no stoppin us now, we on the move!”

I’ve been asking myself why I’m happy (its a strange thing to question ones happiness: I’m strange, so therefore, I do this). I’ve narrowed it down to getting a load of compliments lately of a few girls I know, talking again to an old friend who I haven’t talked to in a while, my hard rockin friend Kate being back from hols and hanging out, getting loads of praises and good comments regarding Kallam in nursery (beaming with pride)

To go with this new outlook I think I’m gonna treat myself to some new clothes from the Trafford Centre. I kinda know the look I’m going for, but whether I’ll actually pull it off is another thing. ...

The only things to put a downer on my current mood are the guy being sick constantly next door at all hours of the day... Seriously, is he bulimic or something?? Having no money till next week and feeing myself of a night as theres no gas and all the food I have is oven friendly.... grrr

That’s all for the time being. Tempus Fugit

Friday 9 October 2009

nighttime antics

I have an overactive imagination... This is partly the reason why I was tip toeing round my darkened unused living room with poster tube in hand coiled like a lethal snake ready to pounce on anyone who should jump out and go boo!. I heard noises from upstairs.... this could have been in my mind. Nevertheless, I spent a thorough 2 minutes checking around and switching all the lights on afterward to confirm that no one was indeed in the house apart from myself. I had my hands full of washing as I went back to my room and tried to turn the light on with my forehead...... it was a dimmer turn switch and I still have the mark now.... I need to chill more. Welcome to the life of Mal. Whoever I find as a companion in life will have to put up with me being a doofus because thats who I am. Makes life more interesting ay. lol


I wanna tattoo, this year more then ever. I discussed this amongst other things with Sarah (a good friend & blog buddy) and its one of those things, where you are anxious about getting one, but when you talk about it more and more, you get psyched up to get one and I really want one. The picture to the right is sort of what I’m after. Better quality and basically showing a calm lion with cub representing me and Kallam. Now its just getting psyched up to get one even more and preferably having someone to go to a parlour with to spot me and cheer for me when I have it done.

Tuesday 6 October 2009

Housemate Blues

I really feel for my housemate........All he wanted was no ties fun and frolics with one or two girls/women: he made this perfectly clear from the start of their affair. Yet when he goes and calls it quits after them apparently wanting more then just sex and developing feelings, he gets the hang mans noose around his neck for this and they take it more then just to heart, they are properly depressed. As can be seen from multiple Facebook statuses ranging from ones showing their anger at him to ones wanting to slice of his genitalia and put it through a blender.

IMO he did nothing wrong: maybe he talked too much to them and got to know them, maybe he was there for them when things went wrong in their lives, or maybe he just gave them the idea just by being caring. One of these girls is a friend of mine and she took it quite badly. Ooooh, badly isn’t the word I’m looking for. she took it so badly that she’s moving from the neighbourhood and is going to live elsewhere. She’s a nice gal too, has a bubbly personality and is good looking. I’d have asked her out myself had it not been for the fact she has really low self esteem and seems to be putting herself down all the time. A girl with issues. The other one he was seeing on the side is a nice one too, has a bubbly personality and seemed to me one who would have been happy in a casual non relationship. Can’t always count on feelings staying out of the equation. Anyways, my housemates left town for a week to take a breather from all the mayhem, maybe its for the best.

Onto myself anyway now. My Houseparty went well, I got drunk and had fun. The entire amount of visitors seemed intent of cramming themselves in the kitchen, small as it was, so i joined them. My mate Adam showed us how bulb in a microwave party trick and I provided the tunes through my ps3. It rocked. Everyone said they had loads of fun thanks to some party beer drinking cards. lots of flirting went on and I can't remember any of it. It was one of "those nights". 

The following morning was a sight and I left tidying up for another day and spent the day recovering. :P

I was told at the weekend, that the barmaid I asked out the previous weekend had been asking for me. I heard all this off my dad as she had been asking about how I am and that she was worried that I got the wrong end of the stick when she told me that she was only 18. It turns out it was more of an approval question then a statement. She thought I’d be against going out with someone that age. Its unknown territory for me, but anything’s worth a shot. Might be something there. I’ve asked my dad to try and get her number, as I’m unable to get to the pub after work. (I hate busses). Whether it’s on their list of priorities I don’t know. We’ll see.

I’m still working my way through Dan Browns book. It’s got me glued to it every lunchtime. It’s full of interesting facts, action and suspense. I’ll write a review when I get to the end.

Thats it for today. ciao

Thursday 1 October 2009

things that interest me this week....

Things that have taken my interest this week:


1. Dan Brown’s The Lost Symbol.

Set to be another blockbuster, Dan Browns “The Lost Symbol” has already got critics buzzing over it. It’s definitely got me excited. I bought it on Tuesday and read it every lunchtime, and it has me addicted already. I’ve learnt some interesting facts about Washington DC and its history and the story, even after a couple of chapters is forming up well and has set the benchmark for the rest of the book. Its one of those books where you can’t wait to read it all, but know when you do, you’ll be upset as there are no pages left to read.


2. Flash Forward.


A new TV show thats out from the same US station that broadcasts LOST and other high budget shows. Its a sci fi one, so it has my interest piqued already. The story is where a majority of the population of the world has visions of the future 6 months ahead for about 2 minutes and the rest of the story is focused on a police officer trying to piece together his visions and others in an attempt to work out why everyone had the same experience. I’m going to eagerly await every episode of this one. I normally reserve judgement until a few episodes into the season, but this one seems good already.


3. Packages


Theres been four packages delivered that I’ve ordered at my previous address. I’m just interested in what they are out of what I’ve ordered.. Nothing major lol


4. Barmaid


I was interested in a barmaid at my dad’s local who seemed to have taken an interest in me. After plucking up enough courage, I asked her out and she seemed ok about it until she said she was 17. I recon it’d be wrong for me to date a 17 yr old, so I left it and so I go onto the next. :P Just goes to show my confidence is getting better if I can approach ppl easier now lol My approach in this instance was the shy but interested one where I looked down but did the cute looking up and saying that I fancied them :P It had her interest, but unfortunately, she wasn’t in my age range :P


5. “Malwarming”


A party, which technically isn’t a housewarming so my friends have decided to call it a Malwarming.... cute. Its on Saturday and hopefully should get a decent visitors list. My housemate wulfie said he knew someone who could bring Rock Band!!!! Awesome... will update you on how it goes...

Wednesday 30 September 2009

much anticipated update ....

Whilst I have some spare time in work (a rare thing indeed) I thought I’d return by popular demand.... (one person asked me to)

I miss blogging to be honest, its a full five minutes in life where I can plop down some thoughts and ramblings onto this white virtual paper and try to make sense of them instead of having them cooped up in my head like a metaphorical prison of thoughts, problems and dreams.

The main news of the month is that I’ve broken free of the parental abode and gotten myself a place of my own. It’s sharing a house with another guy, but its quite fun nonetheless. I’ve got independence now, which is what I wanted when living with my dad and his girlfriend. My room made nicknamed “Wulfie” is a strange one in my view, but he probably thinks the same of me with my eccentric and unusual ways of living, i.e. dancing around the house, spending time alone and loving it, my morning routine* etc. What I find weird about him is two fold: one.... his first appearance is intimidating (bulging eyes, strawberry blonde hair and a confident attitude), secondly he is indie mad and wants to be a mod. Nice....

The house in question wasn’t the epitome of cleanliness when I moved in. Dog hairs covered the floor as if some freaky hermit carpet, thigh bones seemed to be hidden here and there around the house, and the dishes were stacked up in mini skyscrapers. It’s all sorted now because Wulfie had taken it upon himself to clean up the place and I help out when needed too. So its a nice little bachelor pad and what’s best is it has Beatles pics all over the living room, which makes me feel right at home.

My dad the other day text me saying he missed me, which was nice and very not like him. Makes me think he really enjoyed my company, which was not evident among the nightly roasting sessions they had about me during their drinking fests.

Lesser major news is I gotz myself a PS3 and an Iphone, I now have all my gadgets of the year that I set out to get. Go me. I’m not materialistic, however much that seems. All these possessions are little consolation from actual social contact, which I’m pleased to say is coming along very well. Now that I live in the same town as my friends, they come round more often and I can go out for drinks with them (if I have money). Me and Wulfie have had guitar jamming sessions, which have been fun and had fun times listening to music. I hang around more now with Kate, whos is my rockin’ best mate. I go round hers sometimes for a movie, to rock out on guitar hero or a few drinks down the local. Good times.

To sum up the rest, work work work, I see Kallam of a weekend, which is still a great (hes walking now! ***SO PROUD*** and I see more of him. Hes turning out to be a brainy lil rugrat now, wanting to read books and copying words note perfect. And Im no less of a man to say he is just soooo cute. :P I’m in the process of arranging a “Malwarming” party, as named by my friends, because its not exactly a housewarming lol hopefully that should go well.

That’s it for now. Will update

Thursday 30 July 2009

Superdogs!

It's amazing what you can rustle up when hungry and have limited ingredients. For instance, I was at my exs recently minding the kids and I needed to eat. I fed the kids with chicken, chips n beans but found out there wasn't enough for me :( so I explored the cupboards. I found chicken super noodles and hot dogs hmmmmm. They seemed to go well together at the time so I mixed in chopped hotdogs in and voilà!




Superdogs! Thought I'd share that with ya. No need to thank me.

Went and saw Harry potter at weekend. Wow. Best film of 2009, I kid you not. It had me entertained all the way through. Check it out. It has comedy, action, romance and more.




I've also watched ice age 3 which was cool, public enemies "go Johnny", and most films out at the mo.

Not been up to a lot myself lately, applies for my own place from the council hopefully I'll get a place soon after lying through my teeth on the application.

See ya soon

-- Post From My iPhone

Thursday 23 July 2009

Return or not to return

Decisions, decisions. Not a major one but one nontheless. This decision is whether to return to blogging or not. I like it and find myself always returning to it, but lose interest quickly.

I might, we'll see. This iPhone app I downloaded makes it much easier, so maybe, just maybe.

Not done much as of late, same old. Work, xbox, tv, computer, gigs and clubs. Nothing really to report on. Might be going wales sometime in august with kal. So I'll report on that.

For now it's byeeee


-- Post From My iPhone

Wednesday 17 June 2009

A long time coming....

I'd be the first to admit that my attention span is like that of a child in a toy store.... I get into something and just like that *clicks his fingers*, hes bored and moves onto something else to satisfy his creative thirst.... Its annoying when you just can't find the right way to express this creativity....  This is part of the reason I gave up bloggin...

In the time between my last post and this one, I took up guitar again.... put it down.... tried keyboard.... put it down and then onto photography, which didn't last long either.... Frustrating to say the least. Back to blogging...

Its been an eventful month or so. I've been on a few dates, been to a major concert, walked miles and miles for charity and been on telly....In between all these events was just boring nights in on my xbox and computer... so I'll skip to the highlights... FF

The concert I mentioned was an Oasis concert in Heaton Park in Manchester, said to be one of their biggest concerts to date, but I doubt it. I'm sure somewhere along the lines they've had a bigger one. Anyways, I went with three other friends and it was set to be a full day of booze, good music and good times. It started off well, with me meeting my friends at the train station. Well.. apart from me panicing, as I always do, about what to take, whether I'll need everything apart from the kitchen sink. I was convinced in the end to just bring myself and money. Some git who we went with, a big headed twit (I didn't bother remembering his name) took every opportunity to make me the butt of all his jokes.. I took them all on the chin, but secretly wanted to maim him. 

We got there and waited, along with 70,000 plus people to enter the park. We were some of the first to gain entry and as a result got a extra special yellow band to let us into the front of the concert area. Judging by the size of the concert, I was told later on this was not easy and I felt quite good about it later on. We got there and proceeded to the front where there was litte room to set camp, but we made do litterally sitting on a few other concert goers to get a good spec. The beer at the place was over £3, that put the biggest dent in my wallet that day. I must have had over 15 pints, so thats like £45 wasted on beer lol  


On first was Reverand and the Makers, a nifty band from Manchester I think and then Kasabian was on from Leicester. They both rocked and we had a merry ole time.  Oasis though, was what we came for. By the time they came on it was 9pm, and we had been there since 1pm. The time had come.... They started playing Rock N Roll Star..... but then STOPPED! we were like "wha??". They stormed offstage and left us all to wonder what happened. We waited about an hour for a reappearance greated with messages on the screens saying there were problems with the generators. They eventually came back on and said it was a free concert for everyone... FREE CONCERT did i hear you say? yup a free concert. We were all over the moon. Not only did we get a full days worth of good concert, but it was free! SCORE!. lol All in all a good day I'd say. I've sent my ticket off for a refund and should be receiving it shortly.


The being on telly.... well that was just a few seconds on a local news show. Take a look below 0.29 seconds into the vid. I'm the one with the black n white striped top singing with his friends Champagne Supernova.... how cool?



Apart from that really good concert. I went on a few dates. One lasted more then one day, which I was made up with, but at the end of it all, she wanted to just be friends. Fair play. We met while I was out on the town with my usual drinking bud James and a new addition Chris, who is from Runcorn, a neighbouring town. We met some girls and had a good laugh, at James expense too. We called him Stifler, because he just acts too desperately when drunk, which i found out when looking at him from off the dancefloor. lol Maybe thats why i've been unlucky pulling in the past dancing around with James... i dunno. Anyways, we swapped numbers at the end of the night and agreed to meet up a few days later. We met up in a nice bar in town called the Imperial and had a good conversation and I was a good listener and stuff. Maybe I wasn't her type... with her being a sylisimo hair stylist and me just being a grungy rocker.. I dunno. She text me the next day, that she just wanted to be friends (translated as, we probably wont see each other again) great lol


 

Onto the charity walk, it was from Whitchurch to Bickerton.... some unknown countryside villages 15 miles apart. The day was fun but painful... I saw some amazing views and had a laugh with work colleagues. But its safe to say I won't be doing anything like that again for a while.. lol



Sunday 17 May 2009

update-ma-blog

I'd like to say I don't have enough time to blog but that would be a lie. I have more to do in work now due to being given a new job role in the property side of our firm. More to do, more responsibility and more chance to shine and show what I'm worth. I did most of my bloggin in work, so its thrown me off blogging a bit. So for now I'll do mini ones every now and then and see how that goes.

The weekend started well. I went a friends birthday party in Runcorn, a neighbouring town. Had laughs, got drunk stayed up till 3am. Unfortunately I got carried away and I had Kal the next day. I got two hours sleep. I thought the babysitter would have gotten up with Kal, but nooo, she called for me when Kal woke up. lol I spent the day being zombie mal, but did my daddy duty and had fun with Kal. I got home all tired and really exhausted when my friend calls and asks if we both can go out. It was his last chance to go out for two weeks as he was going up to scotland. So i agreed. Didnt have a good night at all. I may pack in going "clubbing" from now on. Its the same story every time. I see someone, or many I like, i work myself up for not having the courage to approach and end up just knocking the drinks back and maybe having a dance towards the end of the night. Safe to say, I got off early and went home.

The online dating aspect of my life is uneventful. I message others, I get no response. Maybe thats because I only use the free ones? I may invest in a subscription one, maybe the king of all dating sites, Match.com. ... i dunno. There was one who messaged me not so long back, but after a few convos, I found her to be depressing and desperate. She complained in every convo, asking why no one likes her and the odd remark about myself like "i wouldn't say no" and asking personal questions. I blocked her after giving her a chance to redeem herself and I'm continuing on my pursuit of love. Will keep you updated.

Recently I watched, Star Trek, Wolverine and Angels and Demons.

Star Trek was really good. A good spin on an old story. Action galore, good acting and good storyline.  I enjoyed it a lot. I'm not a trekkie per say but I do enjoy star trek a lot and it was good to see a movie like that. I love JJ Abrams works (lost, Fringe, Cloverfield, and now this) It seems he can't do wrong on my opinion.

Wolverine was really good also, but I only watched the infamous Workprint version going around the internet. Its the full film but without complete CGI. I still enjoyed it, but wouldn't mind seeing it in its entirety. 

Angels and Demons was the most recent film I saw.... It had me really upset. Nothing like the book, which I so enjoyed. Ron "happy days" Howard took out a main character, Vittorias boss from CERN, who ends up being the main villain. He changed the whole story. I was not a happy chappy. The action was good though, and Hanks did a good job. However, I'd like to have seen the nerdy reporter from the BBC in the film, or the original ending. He ruined the Da Vinci Code and now hes gone and ruins this film too. Grrr.

Thats all for now. Will try and update often. Ciao!

Tuesday 5 May 2009

The Long Weekend

Awww, blog, listen I'm sorry for neglecting you. Look at you, you are all withered and suffering from withdrawl symptoms. I'm back with an update to ressurect you. Sorry, I've been busy. Forgive me?

The weekend was a long one. I took off most of last week because I was asked to mind my son and my ex's son for her overnight mid-week while she went to see Pink in concert in Liverpool. Being the good natured fella I am, I agreed to help out. I originally booked off Wednesday and Thursday, but booked off Friday as well because whats the point in going into work for one day?

I had them overnight without so much of a cry, which involved me taking Rhys, her son to school on both days, which was cool. On the Thursday, I picked him up and we went the park afterwards and had a game of football.

Friday, I spent mostly playing Call of Duty: World at War. Addictive, Much! lol As with most games, I completed it on a few difficulty levels and wanted more. So curiosity made me try the multiplayer aspect of the game and Voila! It let me on even though I had not purchased a membership. I'm still a bit hesitant about it. Free? surely not. When I had Call of Duty 4 I had to pay full membership to go on it. Weird. I ain't complaining. I've been on the multiplayer now every spare second and have ranked up quite well to level 30, Sgt commander I think. I have once again developed a short fuse when teen americans/british whining kids start making stupid noises and stuff and also though getting killed quickly by snipers. grrr I'm doing well though, winning the war and battling on through lol

Saturday came and didn't do anything but CoD all day until around 5.30, when me and a friend set off to see The Fray live!. I know amazing right. It all started off well. I had written the directions down and had my navigating head on with high hopes that we wouldn't get lost. Only my friend had his independant-navigating-know-the-right-way head on and we got lost. We overshot our destination by a few miles and had to stop for directions a few times. An hour or so later, we got there and queued for a while before they let us in. It was an impressive venue I must admit, not the best I've seen though. We were amongst the first 50 to get into the place so we were quite close to the front. I had high hopes that my view wouldn't be obstructed by any gits or git-esses, but as soon as the opening act came on, said gits and git-esses started to side shuffle right in front of me. It tested my patience. I had to keep reminding myself that there are probably a dozen height impaired people behind me trying to see over my head to see the band.

The night went on and The Fray came on. Wasn't the rock n roll atmosphere that I'm used to but I enjoyed their set loads. The combination of vocal, guitar and piano talents from the lead singer, Issac Slade made the band what they were and he didn't let us down on the night. Overall, it was a brill night and I'd definately see them again.

I was hurting the next day from all the standing and stuff, and I felt as though I had the beginning signs of the man-flu coming on (still feel like crap). So I spent most of the day in sipping lemsips and avoiding contact with anyone. That night, I felt better so I went to a friend's party that I was invited to. I got there and was told that they'd be bringing Rock Band with all the instrument controllers!

The host of the party, Dave said that we were all going to be split into bands of three people. I naturally opted to play guitar every single time, but as the night went on I tired the singing. It went bad.... They chose Rio by Duran Duran for me to sing lol It was funny to say the least. I was more at home singing Red Hot Chilli Peppers - Slow (hey oh) and other songs that were more of a lower key. The highlight of the Rock Band experience was hearing people sing Pretty Fly for a White Guy by The Offspring (yes... even me). "give it to me baby, uh uh uh uh!". lol I loved seeing my old friends again and had a great time and even had one those philsophical conversaitons you have in the early morning when drinking about random insignificant stuff lol.

And on our Bank Holiday Monday, I spent it on CoD. Thats my big weekend in a bag. I'll probably be on CoD tonight too. Its addictive lol See ya.

Tuesday 28 April 2009

Too much info can be a bad thing.

Theres me worrying about my own problems when something major is happening all over the world.  Swine Flue. Well I'm certainly paranoid, scared and freaking out at the moment.... mostly due to the scaremongering that is being created through the media regarding Swine Flu. This is what the papers have said recently....

Health officials learned over the weekend that more than 1,600 people in Mexico are possibly infected with the swine flu virus. With the first confirmed case in Spain, the disease has hit European shores. And the tally of confirmed swine flu cases in the United States has now hit 40, according to a statement by the World Health Organization on Monday. Health officials have warned that this number is likely to rise.

Papers and the news state that this pandemic could rival or exceed that of the 1918 pandemic where researchers estimated that 21.5 million people died as a result.

Amonst other things, my curiosity got the best of me and now I'm looking at the life feed of the spread of the outbreak via Google Maps, as shown below. I'm now quesitonning my own sniffles and coughs... I hope that we are all safe at the end of the day, I hope to god we all are. I am probably overreacting, but the facts are scary.

The flu is a mutated case of flu that infect pigs. .... Why Babe? How can you give us this deadly mutated flu!


View H1N1 Swine Flu in a larger map

Pink markers are suspect
 
Purple markers are confirmed or probable
 
Deaths lack a dot in marker
 
Yellow markers are negative

The experts say there are everyday actions people can take to stay healthy.

Cover your nose and mouth with a tissue when you cough or sneeze. Throw the tissue in the trash after you use it.

Wash your hands often with soap and water, especially after you cough or sneeze. Alcohol-based hands cleaners are also effective.

Avoid touching your eyes, nose or mouth. Germs spread that way.

Try to avoid close contact with sick people

Influenza is thought to spread mainly person-to-person through coughing or sneezing of infected people.

If you get sick, CDC recommends that you stay home from work or school and limit contact with others to keep from infecting them. I'm sorry if I've freaked you out in the process, I didn't mean to, but hopefully, you'll see why I'm concerned regarding this outbreak. I sincerely hope no one catches it.


 

Monday 27 April 2009

Musical Monday

OMG how great is Rock Band 2. Addicted much. There was me thinking Guitar Hero was the shiz, but then I decide to buy Rock Band and it’s twice as entertaining and loads more songs. Shame I only have it on the ps2 at the moment and not on the Xbox 360 where I could have shared my achievements and show off my guitar shredding skills. Over the weekend to keep me entertained and happy I’ve been playing along to songs such as Livin on a Prayer, Everlong, The Middle and White Wedding no less. I even sing along, now that’s rock n roll...... or sad, depends on how you look at it. Lol I’m currently working my way through the hard difficulty and might even set about mastering Expert, but after nearly breaking a finger trying to play Metalica’s Battery, I think I’ll just give that a miss.

Anyways, seeing as its musical Monday, I might as well share another song that has meant something to me from my past. This week’s song is Everlong by Foo Fighters.

The reasons why I chose Everlong, firstly is well because the Foo Fighters rock, secondly it reminds me of when I went to see them live last year. Wow that was a night to remember. When Dave Grohl stopped messing about as he normally does with his goofy humour (which is one of the reasons why he ranks so highly in my fave celeb list) he started playing Everlong while on his own seemingly floating above the crowd on the runway type thing that extended from the stage into the crowd. The entire stadium fell silent as he played the intro and the atmosphere was electric. When the chorus came about though everyone was rocking out and it was amazing. The song itself is amazing. One of my favourites in fact and I thought I would share it with you lot.




To my weekend update....

Nothing much happened over the weekend apart from having Kallam during the day, which went great as usual and going out on Saturday night.

Me and Kallam spent Saturday at my sisters, which would have been good if not for the tension that fills that house whenever I go. This is due to my sis and her husband always falling out. It’s like one big massive argument that has lasted for years and doesn’t seem to be getting any better. They drink to drown their sorrows, end up fighting most nights and are caught up in what looks like a destructive cycle of anger, tension and depression. Wish I could help really, as its hard seeing my sister go through it all. I’ve tried to give advice, but she will not listen. She said to me this weekend that she is going to be getting a place of her own soon and getting a legal separation. Maybe that is for the best. It’s not nice to spend time there when my sis is trying to put as much distance between herself and her husband causing friction and tension. I probably won’t go there again. It’s very uncomfortable and tense.

Saturday night came and I was glad to be out of the house and party on down without a worry in the world. Things didn’t go to plan though. We got into town early and most of the places were only just opening so we went to a pub which was fairly lively and set about getting drinks in. We hit the beer hard and when it came to going to the other bars in town, I was feeling sick and just not in the mood at all. Feeling sick and eating myself up inside like I normally do when my confidence gets in the way and not approaching anyone, I just was depressed.

There were many girls/women I could have approached a few who looked approachable, but something within was holding me back. Fear of rejection maybe. I get stroppy when I drink if things don’t go to plan I now see when looking back. I don't realise it at the time. I need to stop thinking the girls will approach me, as that just doesn’t happen. They wait for you to go to them. So, instead of just standing there gawping at any girls that walk past, I’m going to approach some next time and make an effort. It’s the only way to defeat my inner demons. At the end of the night, I had a dance with a few, but by then I just wasn’t in the mood so I told my friend and we got off in a taxi still feeling sick and depressed.

As usual, I got over it fairly fast the following morning with other things to think about; the boring day ahead, my head which was banging like a bass drum and the need for coffee. Its only when looking back at how crap I am on a night out that I pity myself and want to set about getting out of this phase. When I look deeper into myself I am unable to just have fun on a night out and seem to want a more serious thing, which I need to stop doing. I asked someone out that I met a week back and she said that she was only looking for fun having gotten out of a major relationship so I left it. Met her again on sat night and because I was still sulking majorly, I declined to dance with her and I feel really bad for it now. *sighs*. I’m just hopeless.

That’s my rant for today....god I went on a bit didn’t I lol Thats what blogs are for though ay. Now I'm working for the weekend again and I am looking forward to going to see The Fray with my good friend Sarah. Fun times.

Friday 24 April 2009

Eight Things

I was tagged recently by a close friend blogger ♥♥♥ The Girl of Make Believe ♥♥♥ to do this meme. Check her blog out as its really good.

Eight things I look forward to:
1) Renting my own place and becoming independant.
2) Finding "the one". The single life sucks
3) Seeing my son every weekend.
4) The possibility of going on holiday to Wales later this year
5) Seeing The Fray in two weeks
6) Seeing Oasis in June
7) The weekend - I need another good night out
8) Driving perhaps...

Eight things I did yesterday:
1) Went to Work
2) Had tea - a luverly chicken dinner made by my step mum
3) Checked out some trial glasses I ordered to see what they were like
4) Tried on some t-shirts I bought. Very cool
5) Played on my x-box - Mass Effect
6) Went on internet
7) Watched TV
8) Watched a film - Be Kind, Rewind

Eight things I wish I could do:
1) Mind Read - I'd love to know what people really think of me and stuffs lol
2) Not get so attached to people to soon
3) Have more confidence
4) Time Travel
5) Fly
6) Have the ability to have loads of career skills for a better job.
7) Wish I had the patience to learn something new without getting bored
8) Stop looking into things too much and take things as they are

Eight shows I watch:
1) LOST - what a good show...
2) Heroes
3) Smallville
4) Reaper
5) Dexter
6) The Inbetweeners
7) Eggheads
8) Weakest Link

Thanks for the tag, I enjoyed answering them. Now I tag:

Astharis  from Breached Hotel

Chinkygirlmel

Emmie

Please Don't Eat With your Mouth Open

Wednesday 22 April 2009

Feeling Fruity

I've been a bit tired lately, lasting over the past few weeks. (could be why I've not blogged in a bit) What could be the cause? Well, I dunno. It could be as a result of lack of vitimins, as I don't eat fruits often and foodstufs containing vitimins..It could be that I have spent the last few nights concentrating solely on editing photographs I have taken recently,  It could be that I don't exercise... ever lol or it could be that I am not getting enough sleep (staying up till past midnight and then getting up at 8am the next day could be having an effect on me). Whatever the problem, I need to fix it. I may go to my doctors for a routine check up. The last one I had was in 1996.....I think... lol I know for a fact he won't say something like I'm going to die or anything, but I just put off going to the doctors maybe because my dad does. He is a traditional bloke, like when he gets a cold, he roughs it out and just will not see a doctor.

Anyways, enough rambling on about health problems and on with the update-i-mi-bob (i enjoy putting stuff like that at the end of words. It makes it sound all funny).

NOTE: My main highlight was naturally having Kallam for the day, but its best to put things in chronological order when updating. Plus, I'm feeling fruity today, so I may overexaggerate a tad....be warned.

I finished work on Friday with more excitement then a kid in a candy store. I was to meet a real celeb, my first one. That night, if things went well, I was to be meeting an ex-member of Oasis, nicknamed Bonehead. Who, you say? Most people didn't have a clue and only die-hard Oasis/music fans knew who he was. Mr Bonehead, Mr Paul Arthurs as I now know him to be, was to be showing up in a nearby town, Runcorn with his new band Vortex. Yipee! So I headed along over the Mersey to meet up with friends with my camera in hand to get some band shots and hopefully to get an autograph.

I got there and there he was on stage sound checking... I went straight for my fellow Oasis fan, whos stage name is Dave Love (i know very gay), who is also in a band and we did the excited jumping stuff. I took a few pics of friends messing about and posing and then when the first band came on I went into photography mode. At the start, it wasn't that hard, but as the night progressed, I soon found that drinking alcohol when photographin caused me to snap random people who I thought looked funny, most of the shots were blurred and some were very close up lol I got a fair few decent ones though. I might sneak some links to the photographs on the bands myspaces and see if they pick up on them. Maybe I'll get a part time job from it.... wishfull thinking there ay. Got to do it. lol Below are some shots from the night I took.



Half way through the night, I ventured out into the back smoking area outside. Me and my friend Amy were doing the goofing around thing and squabbling over whether to approach Mr Head or not. Being drunk and full of courage, I walked over with purpose having gained enough courage through drinking and lightly tapped him on his shoulder with little regard that he was mid-conversation with a friend of his, possibly a roadie. Looking back, he seemed mildly irritated, but concented to providing me with two signatures no less and a photograph with Dave Love, who now cherishes the photo. Photographers will sympathise with me that we are alwys behind the camera and hardly ever get snapped, so I never got my photograph with Mr Head. *sad face*. I got the autographs though, which I'll undoubtedly lose lol.

I woke up on Saturday feeling way under par and thinking to myself, why oh why did I drink. That soon passed when I recollected the fun and good times of the night. I quickly got dress and set off to get Kallam. Two things that don't go well together is being in a hungover state and riding our local bus service number 79c. The 79c route is rollercoaster hell for hangoverees and goes along loads of twisty turny, vomit enducing roads. As the trip went on and on, I got dizzier, hotter, and stuff. Luckily, I managed to contain myself to the end of the journey and quickly departed the bus and round the back of a nearby bus stop for some alone time.... nice. After a quick trip to the shop for fruit juice and munchies, I felt right as rain again and made my way to collect Kallam.

We had a great day. I took him to get his mop top cut, which again he behaved so well, the hair dressers were shocked and I was soooo proud lol Then again, I think Kallam is just scared in them situatons as he wears the expression of a victim. As seen to the right. lol  We then went to my dads for a bit and then onto a kids play area in town. Its possible that I am the most proud dad in the world when I'm with my son. He means the world to me and seeing him smile and just being around him fills me with joy and happiness. I took him back and then set off for home where I proceeded to relax and laze about before going out on Saturday with my friend James.

Saturday night went well, we met up at our other friend, Al's house and then went to the local boozer where we did the usual game of  "drool and stare at any lady who walks by". I'm sure we've been spotted doing that many times, but none of us make an effort to approach anyone. We then headed off towards the more livlier places in town where we drunk shots, had a few laughs and towards the end of the night danced the night away. I must say hanging around with James has strengthened my confidence, because looking back a year ago, I wouldn't have had the confidence to go out on the town, let alone dance while out on the town. Not had any luck with the ladies yet, but given time I should be alright. Maybe its the glasses? I've ordered some trial ones to test out new looks, as its proven women while on a night out firstly look at the face and if its someone with glasses or something, they are put off. Sounds shallow, but it seems true.

No sign of a hangover on Sunday, and it basically consisted of relaxing, being lonley, seeking company with my pet dog Ivory and slobbing about. Then on with work, which brings me to today.

Hope you've enjojyed this blog as much as I enjoyed typing it.

Tuesday 14 April 2009

Comic Book Me

Firstly, a little observation. When on my way back to my normal office after covering at another one accross town. I came across a poor old fellow who had fallen and really badly hurt his head. I made the usual glance around when something like that enters your boring existance of a day, but I didn't linger as there were many people around....too many. 

There were the caring middle aged ladies knelt besides him, the frantic middle aged men with cell phones calling for help stood nearby, there were the nosy parkers and happy ending folk who just want to see what will happen to this tragic story, and then theres the kids/teens who stand outside of the circle pointing and laughing amongst themselves... now that upsets me. I guess you could call them chavs, the type of kids who don the matching tracksuits and caps and ride small BMX bikes, the ones who drink cider and never go school...grr. I hate those types. I hope the gentleman was alright and got to hospital fast. My thoughts go out to him.

Heres a little comic I created over the past couple of days to pass the time using a comic social networking site called Pixton. Very handy and I may post a couple of comics on here as and when I feel like to get me back into the swing of blogging and for entertainment value. Its only an experiment and a mess around, so its only a made up story lol




My weekend went well. It was a bank holiday, so I had Friday and Monday off work. I was due to have Kallam and his brother overnight on Friday, so I went over early to spend some time with them before they went to bed. On Saturday, I took Kallam for his lunch at a nearby cafe and then to my dads where we played and spent time together. Its great to see my dad laughing and playing with Kallam at the weekend, as it seems like my dad is down most of the time. Kallam loves his grandad too.

I love this picture. Its a shot which shows them natrually having fun together.
(the hat is just a hat my dad got from a pub once, he doesn't wear it all the time lol)

On Saturday night, I went to a gig at a local. On stage were some friends I met not so long back who were in a band called Kessler. They are all in their 30s, but act in their early 20s and are very fun to hang around with. I felt quite sorry for them, because they had been asked to play at the local, but hardly anyone turned up, a mere 20 people no less. They played their extra long set consisting of classics from the 60s, 70s, and some modern tracks, which they call their crowd pleaser set and a really good cover of Katy Perry's Hot and Cold. It was a cool night.

Sunday and Monday I was dead to the world.... I played on xbox, watched tv and went on my computer. Hardly left my room. I hate times like that. Times where I don't feel like doing anything. In those days, I completed my newly aquired Tomb Raider Underworld and completed Dead Space... Now I have two useless games, because I hate playing games more then once... oh well. And now I'm part way through my working week. Roll on the weekend...lol

Wednesday 8 April 2009

My Fave Things - April

Each month, I'm going to post a list of my fave things and why. Hopefully, the list will vary with each month depending on what it is. Maybe I'll like it for months, but I doubt it. Inspiration for this list was taken from another blog and I thought it would be a good monthly feature. My blog updates at the bottom, if you are interested in my doings recent activities lol

My Fave Movie - The Butterfly Effect 3 - Revelations

I saw this film online not so long back and in rare good quality. It was a great film, with twist and turns and a good storyline to boot.









My Fave Album - Folie à Deux by Fall Out Boy

What an amazing album from those pop rock specialists Fall Out Boy. I've been listening to it a lot recently. Maybe its the powerful vocals of Patrick Stump thats got me hooked, or the catchy riffs... maybe its the lyrics that stand out for me. I don't know, but what I do know is that when listening to it, you'll find me singing along and air guitaring.

Songs like Americas Sweethearts and What a Catch, Donnie showcase the bands ability to change genre of music effortlessly and in some cases verges on showing off. You can't hold it against them though; if you have the talent, flaunt it.



My Fave TV Show - LOST

Who loves LOST? I do. Its definatley the thinking man/woman's show. I can't get enough of it. Its got time travel and loads of action, adventure, romance, twists and turns and great acting.

Its the best show around and no one can convince me otherwise.....nuff said.


My fave book - Labyrinth by Kate Mosse

No.... not the model, but the historical, action adventure, fiction author. I bet she gets that all the time lol

It wasn't the best book I've read ever, but this month, its the one that caught my eye. It involved two points of view from the outset, one of an Alais who was in 1680 Carcessone in France and one of an Alice who was in modern day France and follows both of their storys including a hunt to solve the mystery of the labyrinth and more. It had me hooked, which is more then I can say for some poor attempts at Dan Brown-esque books in the past that I have read, so alls good.


Website of the month - Digg.com

This site is a very handy tool for those wanting an update about anything without having to scrawl through an endless amount of websites to find what they want.

It has handy tabs which allows you to search any topic relating to science, entertainment, odd stuff (my fave), technology etc.

I always visit the main page to find any interesting news when I have nothing to do in work or wherever I am

My fave drink:  Oasis Fruit juice

My fave meal: chips, peas and fish from the local chippy

Recent Events:

The weekend went fine, went to collect Kal on Sat from his mummys then went to McDonalds where we had lunch. He got a free balloon which, because of the wind, I had to run off to fetch much to Kal's amusement. We then went to my sisters where we played and had a mess around. My sister put some bets on the Grand National horse race, which Kal won! My sis put £1 on the winner which was 100/1 favorate, which meant Kal won £100, but had to give half to my sis for putting the bet on for him. I tried to be sly and said I gave her a pound for Kal, but she wouldn't have none of it. Can't blame me for trying lol

Sunday I stayed at my sisters all day and went to have our sunday lunch at a nice carvery that was local, an all you can eat carvery no less. I was back to work on Monday and thats how its been since then. Back to the boring routine

Sunday 5 April 2009

A Beatles Pic

Heres a drawing I did when I was around 12 and the original photo is below that I drew. Thought I'd post it after finding it routing through my Beatles memorabilia I had to give to my niece Jud and thought I'd share with you all. 

Friday 3 April 2009

Hey Jude, Don't Make it Bad....

My niece, Jud (16), god love her, has taken the first step in discovering Beatledom and is currently teaching herself about anything Beatles. It makes me so proud, being a big Beatles fan myself. It all came about when she chose to study the Beatles as an art project and has been looking through album covers and artwork done by Lennon and so on. She has now ventured into teaching herself all there is to know about them. Go her!

In steps good ole uncle Mal with his many books on the Beatles, including the sizable Anthology, which weighs a ton. She has asked for them so she will receive along with any info I can give her myself. Only last night she was asking about Lennon’s death, which she seems morbidly fascinated with lately and I answered what I could. She asked about Sean and Julian, Lennon’s sons and what they did after he died and whether McCartney made amends with Lennon before his death. I was happy to help out.

One thing that perturbed me was that she mentioned that she and her friend had been debating about who was better John Lennon or Kurt Cobain... What! I was flummoxed about why anyone would even side with Kurt when Lennon’s on the table too. There’s Lennon who had 20 years worth of performing and making a difference by trying to “give peace a chance”, whereas Cobain had a very short period in the limelight, most of it he spent being depressed and wasted. The Beatles influenced nearly all bands to follow for years and decades to come. Nirvana influenced some but not all bands and his death carries the most importance when remembering Nirvana. I could argue all day about it, but is it worth it?

Luckily Jud stuck up for Lennon and is carrying on debating for me against her friend. With my tid-bits of information given to Jud I hope to help her win. Out of interest... What are your views? Cobain or Lennon?

Thinking back to around 2001, I remember taking my first Beatles tour of Liverpool with Jud and my ex from TX who I was with at the time. I was 18 and Jud must have been around 7 ish. We struck a friendship with a shop owner from Matthew Street because we visited that area a lot around that time. He agreed to personally take us on a tour of all of the major Beatles landmarks. It’s a shame I don’t have any photographs. I took some good ones of Strawberry Fields and Penny Lane. It had a lasting impact on Jud and she still remembers it all to this day.

I myself have been a fan since I was 8 when my dad first let me listen to The Beatles’ Red Album compilation of all of their number ones and I was hooked from then on. I, like Jud took it upon myself to learn more and more. I have a few LPs, Hard Days Night and an untouched Sgt Peppers (unfortunately it is a reissue). I have the anthology Beatles book, which I’m going to lend to Jud plus all of their albums on CD. I did have my own website that I made on Homestead around when I was 18 called From Me 2 You, but it’s been deleted since.

That’s my Beatles history. Nothing to report on, lonely nights, watching TV, films and music, which is why I’m going over old ground again. It’s good to reminisce and I hope I’ve give you an insight into one of my interests. Thanks for reading.


Wednesday 1 April 2009

Tic Tac tooooow!

Thought all you visitors to my blog would enjoy a game of tic tac toe. I've programmed it so it cannot be beaten. Try it.


 
 
 
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I'm so cruel ain't I. April Fools! hahahaha!


I'm very much into practical jokes. Been doing them on unsuspecting family members and friends for a while now, but I've kinda stopped in recent years. I thought about putting cling film on the toilet this morning, but I'm sure my dad and his g/f wouldn't have appreciated it. There was always salt in the sugar pot, but nah, I would have only got a really good shout at for all my efforts. What I needed was someone my age who I could have scared the be-jesus out of. The funniest prank I scared on was one that actually backfired. I was hid in a laundry basket when I was around 8 years old and my sister was walking past. I jumped up so hard out of it that I fell out of it and cracked my head on the sink. Safe to say my sister was scared, and later on scared for me, who by that time was nearly unconcious lol

Referring to my previous blog post, I think I'll stay with Blogger. I found a part of blogger that helps me post more accurately called Blogger In Draft. I think its a way for them to test prototype features before they put them in regular blogger, I'm not sure, but I like it and its convinced me to stay. Go me. I have still been working on the header for the blog, but I keep getting sidetracked by doing designs like the one to the right.

I could do much better then this and its frustrating that my mood allows me to settle for something less then perfection. I get really frustrated when I don't have the motivation to do stuff I normally do. My horoscope mentions something about my creative cycle coming to an end, maybe that has something to do with it.

A creative cycle is coming to an end, so it's a good idea to finish up old business prior to starting something new. Be careful, though, as it's easy for you to overlook what's really happening because you want to have an optimistic outlook. But being eager for success is not a good reason to idealize the current situation. You will be best served now by seeing things as they truly are and not as you would like to see them.

I'm not a strong beleiver in many horoscopes, but the one I normally look at hits the nail on the head on most days and often has things I can relate to in them. I get this one from Tarot.com, which has a widget on my goodle (my way of saying google) homepage.

Speaking of goodle, I have been addicted to the program Google Earth. Its an awsome program where you can visit and learn about places around the world, complete with 3d buildings and street view. Its like a suped up version of the browers google maps. I was exploring Liverpool, being a newly visited city by the google team and I was amazed by the detail. Below is a pic of the 3d model of Liverpools Liver Buildings.


Plus if you look long enough, you can catch some candid moments like this one of some tourist kissing one of the city's Superlambananas. Whether it was done for the Google team, I don't know, but I wouldn'd be suprised if they did it just for their own photo colleciton lol