Friday 19 March 2010

Blue Moon Blog

Here’s my once-every-blue-moon blog. Its been a while, but since I’ve still been getting comments on my last entry, I thought it only necessary to keep on doing it. Plus, I need to get some stuff off my chest, in a informative and in no way depressing way….. hopefully.

A lots happened since …..*checks last blog date*…. October! That’s ages ago, wow. Yeah, a lots happened. Christmas, New Years and Valentines Day. Its been a while.

She gave me beer. love at first sight...
In November, I met up with someone I’ll call Barmaid Girl. I chatted her up over the bar in the pub which she worked in, which is very unlike me. She was a bit unsure at first because of the age difference (9 years younger no less). We went out a couple of weeks and ended it soon after due to her being immature and plus we had nothing in common. We broke it off early December and that was that.

I spent Christmas with Kallam (my son) at my ex’s place while my ex went out to parties and so on. I wouldn’t miss his Christmas for the world.

Just after Christmas I received a message from someone (I shall name Blondie), who stated she had liked my profile and wanted to get to know me better. Curious and curiouser. We chatted and it turned out from the chats, she was alright to get on with. So after a bit of time, around Boxing day we decided to meet up.

We decided to meet up at a local pub which held a pub quiz. Its fair to say things didn’t go to plan from the start. She sat at a table next to the front door of the pub and being winter, we both were freezing and had people brushing past us on either side. It annoyed me an made me uncomfortable on top of me being my shy old self. I’m not a date person, having only going on dates once or twice in the past. I lapsed into silence having had difficulty talking to her, being shy herself. She was really pretty and sexy and that made me shy. She took it as me being ignorant and mean, so come the end of the night I found myself apologizing to her as she showed quite visibly that she was upset. Good start…. Yeah right.

We talked afterwards and decided another date was needed. My confidence was lower the second time round having been frustrated at the outcome of the last. The next one was with friends though and I was considerably more relaxed. Disaster struck though when, towards the end of the night, having had difficulties talking to her asked for her to join me outside to talk, but she didn’t follow. So I waited outside thinking she’ll come eventually. Turns out she just took it the wrong way and went off crying. Strange.

Things went fine for a while, went out a few times and she gave me more chances after making me admit it was all my fault after loads of arguments with me trying to defend myself. Disaster struck again though when we had a big argument out at another pub where she complained all the time about the way I acted and how I should treat her differently then how I treat friends. In some ways this is true, but the stuff I was doing, I wouldn’t have thought it was a big of a deal. Stranger still…. After changing to another pub, she excused herself and came back totally calm, flirty and friendly. That had me confused and freaked out. She also nit picked at little habits I didn’t even know I had. Id have given up sooner, but something just made me want to keep on trying.

We broke it off eventually when after loads more arguments we decided we weren’t meant to be and that we should go our separate ways. I was glad to be single again after such a hard time and confidence draining time. The sex was great and some times together were happy, on the whole we had to call it quits.

So here I am single, and what have I learnt. Even the most beautiful women can be bitches. Nuff said. So I’m on the leisure.

That’s basically the whole update. I’ll update more frequent in the days/weeks to come.