Back to the Past - Part 1

Returning to one of my old internet hangouts recently, Halton Forum, a messageboard for the local area in which i live, i stumbled across my old blog dating back to 2005. Theres quite a few, lengthy entries there. I thought it would be a good idea to post some up here over the coming days to give you all a glimpse into my past, a time that was quite a struggle for me.

The backstory before i continue is that i had just come out of a two year marriage and at the time of the blogs, was going through divorce proceedings and getting myself back on track money wise and also trying to get back into dating again. Just thought I'd share them with you. Hope that they add more knowledge to those who want to get to know me more.

So, step into my time machine (a good link to the blog before hand ain't it) because we are going back to..........

13th Jan 2005.

A Quest to Purchase Spectigoggles....
Posted by Mal, 13 Jan 2005, 12:26 PM

Hi there, First Entry on my blog If you were able to decipher my title I today went to get my eyes tested. The results...... my eyes worsened since last time I got them tested.Went with my dad, who needed his doing too. Both going to get new glasses, mine going to be stylish and so are my dads, with free sunglasses.

After that went to make an appointment to get a divorce from my estranged ex. Yes, I am married, and also 22, *shock* *horror* *(add any emotion you want here)* I couldn’t be more happy to do so. She said she never missed me as much as she thought she did and didn't love me throughout the 3 year relationship, saying she always wanted to break up but couldn't bring herself around to it. Her loss I guess. I treated her the best a man could, falling over and bending over backwards to make her happy (literally). It might cost more because it is international but I will just have to get some advice so I know what I am doing and see how it goes from there.

....o0(divorced at 22, damn! give it time and I will catch up with Ross Geller! lol)

Feeling Not To Good
Posted by Mal , 14 Jan 2005, 08:45 PM

"woke up this mornin...(no it isn't a Hermans Hermits song) .... and I felt sooo tired. I got to bed early...ish and just felt so sluggish. With tiredness in my eyes, stumbling over the bomb site I call my room in a rush to turn my alarm off (I had to be a dumbass and place it across the room, or maybe my subconscious did it so I couldn't snooze lol ). Anyways, was really tired and groggy.

With head spinnin' headed downstairs after collecting all my work clothes from my wardrobe, to attempt to wake myself up with some coffee. My morning viewing consists of a documentary of monkeys in a sanctuary I think in the UK called Monkey Business (Channel 4 shoved my fave programs, Friends and Everybody Loves Raymond off the usual spot and instead show Big Brother). I find monkeys amazing so I don't mind watchin them, tis fun. Then after that watch a bit of big brother, which after watchin monkeys and then big bro, you kinda see the similarity. lol Especially with John, the big hairy ape.

Work was slow (always is), with hardly any calls and frequent work to do from my boss. Was stressed out last night as the ATM machine swallowed my card , it seems I never told the bank of my moving house, I can be such a dumbass at times. So I am havin to rely on my dad for money for the time being.

Can't wait to get paid. Going to get new clothes, haircut, and glasses and I am going to start getting out. I am not one for going to clubs and pubs, but I am sick of spending all my time inside. Maybe I might find someone new. Got home earlier on and didn't feel any better. Took paracetamol and felt a bit better now.Going now to tidy up my bomb site of a room in readiness for a lads night in with my nephew watching Hellboy on DVD. bye

As the days go by, i'll post up more entries from back in 2005.

End of the world due to Science test?

During recent years, science has been taking leaps and bounds with discoveries and technology, which in turn is motivating scientists to explore more unchartered territory. What I ask is will these experiments create a devastating chain of events that could somehow be the end of all life as we know it? The answer could probably be yes.

Scientists say that they are going to re-create the Big Bang on a small scale.

“Tests have cleared the way for the start-up next month of an experiment to restage a mini-version underground of the "Big Bang" which created the universe 15 billion years ago, the project chief said on Monday 25th August.”

Holy moly! When I first heard of this, I was thinking how on earth can they possibly do that. Well, scientists have found a way, as they do using a machine they've invented called the Large Hadron Collider. They state that they can stage a new big bang if they smash some protons together. (a million per second, which is way more than god managed).

But what could go wrong with this experiment? As S Peter Davis from Cracked.com so brilliantly puts it:

“Well, first imagine an apocalyptic nuclear holocaust. Multiply that by about one hundred and twenty thousand billion, and then multiply that by around the neighbourhood of infinity. That equals around one eighth of the magnitude of the Big Bang. Nevertheless, scientists are pretty sure they can contain their Big Bang in an Erlenmeyer flask, just so long as they remember to cork it.”

“The problem, of course, is that even the eggheads don't really know what's going to happen, which is sort of why they're doing it in the first place. Scientists on the LHC project insist there is no danger, and predict that the resulting observations could revolutionize science and send us into a golden age of knowledge, in the event that we actually survive.”

So, being blown to smithereens maybe a slight side effect from this experiment. Fantastic.

Another eventuality is the accumulation of strange matter. Strange matter is a hypothetical material made up of quarks, which are one of the building blocks of reality, things so small that you can't even possibly imagine. There are two hypotheses about strange matter. One is that the stuff will simply disappear a fraction of a second after it appears. The other is that it will stabilise and convert every atom it comes in contact with into more strange matter. If the latter happened here on earth, in no time, we’d all be dead. Fantastic x2. Scientists respond to the strange matter problem by saying if it was ever going to happen, it would have happened already (since these kind of reactions happen a zillion times a second in our atmosphere anyway), but if the eventuality that it did happen, everyone would be dead, thus no one to due them. Great.

Another theory is that the LHC might open wormholes with its high-energy collisions that future generations can manipulate for time travelling purposes. This is great news if you don’t think too much into it. If you are willing to delve deeper into the dangers of time travel, there’s the possibility you could meet yourself in the past and cause the universe to collapse, there’s altering something vital in the past causing a chain reaction and thus killing everyone, there’s the possibility that future generations may use the time machine to travel back in time from their dwindling version of earth due to lack of resources to a previous time to live, causing over population and faster consumption of resources, which would be never-ending. The list goes on.

I'm not in anyway a scientific guy, but the facts surrounding this expriment are too obvious to ignore. I hope no side effects happen, they are able to contain the reaction, and that we are all around afterwards. Is that too much to ask. On the lighter side of this scientific broadcast, we may finally be able to explore what made us, the planets, the stars and all life as we know it in the first place.

I hope I've only enlightened you to the possibilities and not scared you into a frenzy building your own bomb shelter or tieing up your noose. Its concerning stuff, but maybe curiosity didn't kill the cat, but only miffed it off a bit.

My next blog will focus back on the main topic....me

Ciao!

the weekend update

Hello all, Nice to see you again.

I really appreciate you coming along to visit my blog. Thank you very much

My weekend went by quite fast. Mostly due to my only waking up yesterday (Sunday) at 2pm lol I must have needed the sleep.

It all started off well. I joined some friends on Saturday in attending a rock gig. Playing at the gig was a band I used to follow, but due to the fact they sounded real bad and tension had formed with them and friendships had turned sour, I left them to their own thing. On Friday however, I was prepared to give them another shot to see if they had improved their performance. They still sucked. Each to their own, but I enjoy good music. I went to the gig with two close friends Kate and Chris, two friends that I don’t really see often enough, but plan to in the future.

The gig went well overall, met up with Chris and Kate a bit early at the venue and had a laugh and a drink and went to get seats outside, as the gig was outside of the club. My ex and her friends arrived shortly afterwards and sat somewhere else. I got occasional looks from her as the night went by, which didn’t really bother me as I was having a laugh. Miss Purple was there (as mentioned in previous blogs), she came over to say hello and tried to make small talk. Asking questions like Why I had left without saying goodbye the previous week (she was off talking to others and I had had enough of tweedle dum (my ex) and her friend tweedle dee). She also asked if I was going to her housewarming. I had already promised Kate and Chris that I’d be sleeping over at theirs, plus it would have been awkward with my ex and her friends going also.

As the night went on, Chris had to leave to go and attend his mate’s party, which left me in Kate’s company. She has a thing of getting quite close and touchy, which confused me at first, but not for long as she spouted out all night long how much she loved Chris. I think she was sat so close to annoy my ex, as my ex had called her some names in the past. It worked. My ex text me if I was seeing her, which made us both laugh. There is no way I’d date a friend’s girlfriend especially one as good as Chris and she definitely isn’t my type. Kate is a rock chick, but dresses real gothic and smokes a bit too much. We have a laugh though and I consider her to be a good friend. It was good to see my ex jealous, even though I hadn’t planned on it. I text her back saying nothing was going on and that I couldn’t believe she had even asked lol

The night went on and I got wasted and had a laugh with kate and then we went back to hers for some more drinks with her and he brother and his mates. Everything was alright apart from the average testosterone show you normally get with teenage boys trying to show off to their female visitors. Quite like how gorillas would fight off new contender’s to keep their place as leader of the pack. Kate’s brother tried in vein to make fun of me, but I gave as good as I got and equally made fun of him, which at one point I thought he was going to start a fight and he was a big and muscly dude, but he just sulked off somewhere. Must have been the beer giving me some courage.

After I had proved that I was in no way one to mess with and my place in the household leader board was set, I settled down for drinks with the other teens and got to know them and had a chat with Kate and one of her next door neighbours outside of the house in the back garden. Chris came back later one and we retired to the living room and watched Silence of the Lambs, which was very surreal.

Later on that day, I woke up in a totally alien place. Their house, unknown to me, had three floors. I got lost easily and walked into a bedroom by mistake. I panicked, but I was alright eventually as I got my bearings and just chillaxed on the couch, where I had been sleeping. I also got lost trying to get out of their neighbourhood and to the local shopping centre to catch a bus. My head was elsewhere and I looked a mess, but after trekking and numerous back tracks, I made it out and caught a bus to my ex’s to collect Kallam.

When I got there, I stayed a bit to see how Rhys (my step son) was doing, but also trying to ascertain why my ex was being so nice. A friend of mine seems to think that she wants me back, but I needed to know for sure. When chatting for a bit with her, I came to the conclusion that she might, but I cannot be sure. I’m more naive then most and probably can’t spot the signs, but everything just seemed friendly (which I must admit is weird, especially for my ex who in the past has treated me like something that was on the sole of her shoe). My conclusion, even if she is being nice to get me back, I wouldn’t even entertain the idea. I’ve moved on and realised that whilst we had some good times when we were together, the love that I felt wasn’t as strong in the last year that we were together. I recall many times when we were together, before Kallam was born contemplating ending the relationship, but put the idea on the backburner when Kallam was born.

The day with Kallam went well anyway, I took him to get his hair trimmed. I wanted it cut short, but the ex wanted it just trimmed. For the rest of the day, we spent most of it at mine just messing about and cherishing the time we had together. Normally, I would hate the bus journeys there and back, as they take in excess of an hour each time, but I was surprisingly alright, mostly due to having a new music player/phone. I recently won on auction a Sony Ericsson W850i for an amazing price of £53 and now have all of my songs on it. It makes the trips a whole lot shorter that for sure. I can’t live without my music.

That’s it for now. Update ya later