A word to describe how i feel right now is hopeless...
Hopeless because upon looking at myself as if takin in the "bigger picture" i notice a few things that i have observed so far.
- I can't drive/dont own a car
- have a series of unsucessful ratings (in my view their unsucessfulness wern't my fault, but sitll unsucessful)
- i am not financially stable thanks to ex's and debts.
- i don't see my world (my son) as much as i would like
Yes, i'm down, i'm really down. I feel like i'm beyond the gutter. No one really to talk to (in the real world as opposed to the net) so i write it down in a blog (sorry to those reading this babble). I can't help feeling down, i have stuff reminding me everyday..... a junk tip for a bedroom, walking to work because i cant drive, no children to look after, no companion, not enough money to go out and celebrate my friends birthday (which really made me feel like crap) and trust me there'll probably be more to come.
I'll update on the good parts of the month in days to come, but for now.... wooo, heres my darkest hour........
1 comment:
dude I hate to see you feeling so down and only wish I could be one of those people who weren't just an online friend but a face to face "real life" friend.
You really need to lower your outgoings. No matter how little you reduce them by, it all helps.
When you have done that, what you save could go towrds your driving lessons. Think about paying upfront for a few lessons at least that way you'll know you have a few lessons before you take a break or raise some more dosh.
Big hugs dude, always here for a chat xx
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